lucky ass

God says, verily with every difficulty there is relief. Bare in mind, it is only applicable for someone who work hard to achieve their targets, not for some lazy ass that just laying on bed all day long and wishing to become successful. Indeed, God will not change the condition of people until they change what is in themselves. Success doesn't come to you like you wish, you have to work hard for it. Consider yourself lucky for passing all those blocks and postings. You are lucky because you still got your parents and family praying for you.

But luck doesn't last forever, don't you know?

5 more to go

"Just because you took longer than others, doesnt mean you failed"

5 more case presentation to go before going back home for Eid! Moga Tuhan permudahkan urusan untuk approach MO petang ni, esok, jumaat, weekend dan minggu depan. Selasa & Rabu depan burn dah sebab 5th year exam kenot go to the ward. Bertebaranlah dikau cari procedure dekat nephro clinic, scope room dan sebagainya.

Not to forget, banyak lagi yang tak cover lagi. And I am still on bed watching return of superman.

This is me.
Trying to run away from my comfort zone but never succeeded.

Nanti-nanti.

:)

for the next 2 years

It is already at the end of week 5. Minus week 8 (cuti hari raya) & plus study week (week 10) only 4 weeks left. Have 6 more case presentation, lots of cases in the ward needed to be clerk & learn by heart and tons of short cases that need to be practiced. And what am I doing for this whole 5 weeks? 

I followed my heart. My heart told me to sleep. So I slept and begging to God to help me pass. What a worse attitude of a person that is going to become a doctor one day. So you think God will let you pass without showing Him your hard work? 

I need to value time. This one month shall pass really quick. A month isnt enough if I do not take advantage of it. Look at your friends! They are so eager to gain knowledge, they work really hard to become a good Muslim doctor, day and night studying, tagging with the doctors in the wards, so much competitive to learn, cant you just be like them? 

What have you been learning for this past 5 weeks? 

Do you think it is okay to pass with luck, to learn for the sake of exam, at the end of the day when a patient comes to you, you cant figure out what is really happening, and end up killing them? 

Will I end up being a murderer or a doctor?

Cheer up!

Still have time to change.

:)

Random Sunday

Cepatnya setahun berlalu. Tahun lepas, masa macam ni tengah sibuk revise untuk first professional exam. Cuak gila kot dalam masa sebulan nak habiskan revise dua tahun punya subjects. Study last minute biasalah memanglah tak pernah cukup masa. Blergh. Sekarang tengok adik-adik second year pula study group dekat usrah room. Sikit lagi dik, tak lama lagi welcome to clinical years. 

Lagi 6 minggu je lagi untuk end of posting examination. Last posting sebelum ke 4th year inshaallah. Moga Tuhan permudahkan. Bila fikir balik rasa semua ni rezeki. Kalau tak kerana rezeki yang Tuhan bagi rasanya tak sampai pun ke tahap ni. Serius tiap kali exam tak pernah habis baca. Exam clinical paling cuak sebab kita taktau examiner mana yang kita akan berhadapan. Dapat yang lembut hati itulah yang semua student mahu. 

"Medicine is a crazy course"

Tau takpe. Bapak banyak gila benda yang nak kena tau by heart. Makin banyak belajar makin banyak benda yang taktau. But still, medicine is interesting! Sebab kita belajar pasal the greatest creation of Almighty God. Sebab the greatest creation that it isnt an easy job. 

Lagi sekarang semua benda di hujung jarikan. Manusia pun tak semua sabar. Nampak salah sikit tanpa usul periksa, mulut malas nak tanya, laju je p viralkan sesuatu. I think medical profession isnt a noble job anymore. Dont you think so? Same goes to teachers. 

I think people wont understand till one of their family members become a doctor. What would be happening if one of the anti-vax children, become a doctor, a real doctor? I was just thinking, kalaulah orang-orang yang suka cari salah dokter ni, yang lagi percaya jus mengkudu boleh merawat pelbagai penyakit, if their child happened to be a doctor, would they stop? Oh mungkin juga mereka akan jadi orang pertama yang musnahkan impian anak-anak mereka untuk jadi dokter? 

It is not easy to educate people. Ayah aku sendiri pun antara orang yang suka sangat beli over the counter drug. He said he knows whats best for him. I replied, macam tu baik tak payah hantar anak pergi medical school. He just answered, takpelah kau boleh tolong orang lain. K bah k. Ada je jawapan. Ingat senang nak stop your sister from buying products yang katanya dapat memutihkan kulit dalam masa dua minggu, yang boleh besarkan your boobs and buttock? You think its easy? Sampai satu tahap rasa nak biarkan je. Malas nak cakap apa-apa. You are the one yang akan terkesan di kemudian hari. Not me. Kesannya bukan dapat setahun dua, entah dah tua nanti baru kena. 

Scrolling down the instagram, and found some interesting posts. Seeing people losing weight about 10 kg in  a week isnt right. What kind of ingredients they did put into it? What if it doenst burn your fat, but proteins? Orang sekarang semua nak instant. Trust me, the moment you stop taking it, kau akan jadi lebih gemuk dari sebelumnya. Yelah kang terus consume jadi macam tiang pulak. Bila stop jadi gemuk balik. 

Hmm never mind. Bukan badan aku pun. Nanti kang kena label pengacau periuk nasi orang. So, baik kita diamkan jelah. Dokter juga yang kaya nanti kalau ramai orang sakit hahahahahaha. 

Marah?

Like I care?

Eh tapi bukan mereka-mereka ni dah mengkayakan penjual produk-produk beracun tu ke? Like do they care kalau kau sakit pun? Lagi kau sakit lagi mereka kaya. Yelah kan kau percaya jus mengkudu daripada ubat-ubatan yang dah berbillion duit dilaburkan dan berpuluh tahun research.

Asal jus mengkudu dapat nama ni?

Bleerghhhh.

Ramadhan Kareem!