when have the urge to write, write

I promised myself that I would start writing blog regularly since I'm home, unemployed, and have a bundle of free time, but turned up not a single post in February. Luls. My life currently is a bit boring I would say, every day with the same routine. Wake up at 6, go to bed at 12. Running some errands like buying groceries, paying bills, doing house chores, sweeping floor, mopping, cleaning toilets, cooking, giving food to cats and endless chit chat with family members. Not to forget playing games and online walking. I know I'm totally gonna miss this seconds so much later when I've already working. I probably gonna be really busy most of the time would be spend in the hospital day and night and this is the only chance where I've got so much free time with zero commitments.

I guess I'm gonna start working in June after raya. Please after raya, not next month (April). I've read somewhere in the telegram there were few intakes in 2018 took about 1000+ medical graduates. Suddenly I feel so not ready for housemanship. Yes children this is what happen when you don't plan your after- grad before housemanship life wisely yet keep on wondering when I'll start my Ho ship, then complaining why so late ha this time? Didnt the government do their job? Always feel not ready but never have the initiative to start revising religiously ha- ha- ha. Should be by the time you start working, you/re ready mentally, physically and have strong knowledge on what basic is basic.

Okay now all of sudden I start imagined how it feels like seeing a collapsed patient and I am the only attending doctor in the ward that need to start doing something useful before call for help from the seniors.

......

Panic attack!

iDie.


I supposed to read on o&g emergency at this very moment yet in a flash I have the urge to write. I think I should blog regularly hmmm have been saying this many time aiyoo.

This is me with some kind of awkward pose

Other thing, I have turned 26 on 21st February. Feels old enough. I pray for a smooth sailing journey throughout housemanship, I know it is impossible, in other words I hope no matter how bad my days gonna be, I'm strong enough to face it all and complete training in 2 years. I also pray I would start a family in few years time inshallah. It's already been 8 years with the same guy, still get butterflies in my stomach whenever I see him :p

Like Paramore says, "after all this time, I'm still into you"

:)