Another milestones

I thought I'm going to stay longer in PKRC, but turns out tomorrow I'm gonna start my new journey in a new department.

I have a lot in my mind right now, like wow can I totally do this? 

It's easy to tell people, 

"no worries, youre gonna be fine "

"it's okay, you can do this" 

"dont worry to much"

But when it comes to me myself, when I'm in their shoes, I too feel the same. 

Going out from comfort place is surely not that easy. 

Entering a new place, mixed emotions and feelings. I'm happy to start a new journey, but I'm afraid I cant go with it. There's many what ifs. Oh God

Have I forget the concept of mindfulness that I've been holding since years back when I was introduced to it. 

Months ago, when I had come to the decision to moved to Kuching following my husband, at one point I was confident surely I will get this, but then for no reasons I became anxious and worried what ifs I dont get it, then I would be PJJ with my husband, he's in Kuching I'm in Johor, we cannot see each other as usual as we used to. 

Then I talked to this one friend, she told me, 

"Babe..I can sense you are very anxious..but right now you are fearing something that doesn't exist. For all you know you already got kuching and it's just processing..and you are wasting your time worrying.Just recap the past...everything you worried abt has one outcome only. They all worked out you wanted to. This is gonna be just the same. You have to trust me and trust god. Sometimes..your intuition sense something is coming in your way. But then you get confused and get anxious instead. This is normal neurophysiology"

She's damn right. 

Few days later, I called JKN and yes I got what I want. 

Alhamdulliah. 

He is all hearing. 

He is all knowing. 

And He is the best planner. 

Show I be worried now about tomorrow? 

No. 

Just go with the flow. 

Put trust on Him but at the same time do my very best. 

I'm gonna love this place. 

I always find doing solat sunat when I'm in the state anxious/worry/sad is very comforting. 

And I should do it now. 

I'm gonna be just fine.

Inshallah.