Saturday, September 16, 2017

finding the perfect match

Never ends. 
Hopefully this one works wonder for me.
Pretty please. 

I'm reading some review on Cosrx, majority said it really works on them, some are not. I'm going to give this a try. I actually wanted to have Dr Belmeur from The Face Shop however just looking at the price, I literally cried. The only time I bought Dr Belmeur cleanser is when I went to Korea, the price is bit cheaper compared to here. Thus, if I buy the whole set it surely will cost me RM500+ which is wayyyy to expensivelah I can't afford that. 

Till then,
bye.





Sunday, September 3, 2017

even with acnes, i'm pretty

Ayuz, 
You're beautiful no matter how many scars, acnes or red spots you got with or without make up. You don't need others to tell you how pretty you are or how good you look with or without make up. You just need to be confident like always. And no matter what it is, you're always his favorite girl. He's with you even since before this acne, scars and red spots things came up, still with you when you're at your worst and hopefully forever. 

Yes, I'm pretty. 
:) 


Sunday, August 27, 2017

the man with few words

"Nak tau tak pagi tadi masa kite pergi breakfast, tetiba datang budak lelaki comel gila kat meja kite. Semorang terpaku kejap taktau nak buatpe. Mak dia takde, ayah dia je. Comel gila namateyyyyy. Dengan shirt putih baggy pastu short pants biru, topi senget sebelah. Bad boy sangat. Pastu bila nak balik dia cakap "kakak kita balik dulu" Omg so cutelah this boy"
"Oh. Awak pergi breakfast pukul berapa tadi?"
"Pukul 8/9 macam tulahhh. Dia senyum comel ngattt"
"Oh okay"
"Eiiiii tu je response?"
"Dah tu nak tanya apa lagi, bukannya kite nampak pun budak lelaki tu. Takleh nak bayangkan"
"Blerghhh. Eleh kalau lelaki 20-an yang datang mesti banyak tanyakan. Ni sebab budak kecik"
"Taklah, kalau 20 lebih kita reply K je takde nak banyak-banyak tanya"
"Eleh tipu je K je" 
"Dengan Bye sekali" 
What an expected answer from Shahrin lol.
Kbye.








Monday, August 21, 2017

current feeling

A week before final year starts.
Current feeling: anxious 

We have been divided into 5 groups: surgical, psychiatry, medical, paediatrics and o&g. I always hoped for o&g first, because I want my last posting to be paeds. Dekat dengan final professional, inshallah lagi mudah. I'm suck in paeds. So thats whylah nak paeds last. Tapi macam dah rasa macam surgical posting je first sebab buat elective surgery kan and yes I ended up with surgical as my first posting. So my last posting gonna be o&g. Tak kisahlah mana dulu yang penting sekarang ni buat yang terbaik. 

Though I have guts that surgical would be my first, I didnt even bother to bring surgical books home but took others home. I tried reading pdf books hmm I had difficult time to concentrate. It is much easier using the real books. Kenapalah tak bawa balik. As I'm starting to be anxious and nervous, I think of going back earlier, tapi taktau bila. Perasaan sekarang ni kan macam tengah baca buku boleh rasa cuak gila sebab dah lama tak pergi hospital, dah terasa suasana dalam ward, clerking, examining, bedside teachings, dengan tips yang dapat daripada seniors tu buat aku lagi rasa cuak. Think back hmm how I passed my third year ea? Luck je kot. Omg cuaknya nak masuk final year. 339 days till final professional exams. 



I know once final year starts, time would run fast. Really fast. Yang kalau tak gunakan sebaiknya mesti akan rasa penyesalan tu, if I could turn back time.....Masa setiap orang Tuhan beri sama, tapi cukup ke tak based on how much keberkatan yang ada. Kalau Tuhan beri keberkatan waktu 3 jam study pun rasa cukup dah. I always had problems in dependency to God. I'll become more dependent when the exams are near. Allah :( 

Nak bandingkan efforts dengan miracle from God hmm tak payah bandingkan kot. But still have to work harder sebab Tuhan takkan ubah nasib seseorang kalau dia tak cuba untuk mengubahnya sendiri. I really really really hope and pray for my final year to be as smooth as silk, pass every postings and of yes of course final professional exam. Graduate on time, dapat kerja cepat and urusan-urusan selepas tu dipermudahkan. 

I wonder in 5 years time who am I, where am I, who am I with? 




Friday, August 11, 2017

still in comfort zone

Berapa lama lagi nak duduk dalam comfort zone?
Baru kena bambu sikit dah down, bila puji sikit dah rasa selesa sangat. 
Like seriously, with this kind of attitude yang cepat sangat rasa offended semua nak take so serious and easily satisfied with whatever just little achievement that you got, you hope for something big to happen?