Thursday, July 27, 2017

Reply 2008

Tiap kali naik kereta dengan abah, mesti dia akan dengar lagu 70/80's. Setiap kali. Tak kisahlah siapa pun yang drive, aku ke mak ke dia ke adik ke, mesti lagu lama juga yang dia nak dengar. Kalau abah tidur baru boleh tukar channel lain. Ya ampun aku dahlah tak suka sangat lagu lama. Tak enjoy langsung dengar. Macam eii apalah salahnya abah ni dengar lagu sekarang, asyik lagu lama je. Pernah je dia dengar, pastu nanti mesti complain apa ni banyak o o o pastu jerit-jerit, cuba dengar lagu lama, tenang je dengar. Hek eleh mana tah tenangnya, aku dengar hmmmm tak boleh go lah yang penting. 

Sekarang ni berlambak lagu baru keluar. Tapi tak semualah yang bebetul menusuk kalbu menikam jiwa. Ada yang boleh layan ada yang tak. Lepastu kalau tetiba radio main lagu zaman aku sekolah, amboi kemain semangat nak nyanyi, pastu mesti teringat zaman muda-muda dulu. At that moment, tetiba aku jadi faham kenapa abah nak dengar sangat lagu lama, sebab kita tend to dengar balik lagu yang kita membesar dengan. Baru-baru ni aku start buat collection lagu, aku burn letak dalam album; Awesome Mix Vol 1-3 (dah ada 3 volume). Satu aku bagi Shahrin, lagi 2 ada dengan aku. Almost semua lagu zaman sekolah dulu. Dalam album first, ada satu lagu baru, second dua, tiga takde langsung. Yang ketiga ni lagu Yuna & Hujan. Minat gila kot dulu masa sekolah. Tapi takdelah semuanya aku suka, yang jenis jerit-jerit tu memang outlah. Aku suka jenis yang slow, macam tengah cakap hahahaha. 

Masa tengah burn tu aku terberangan, nanti-nanti bila ada anak, tetiba anak terjumpa collection album aku pastu excited nak mainkan lagu yang ada dalam tu, walaupun masatu entah lagu jenis apa entah yang ada di pasaran. Aku download daripada converter youtube-mp3. Waktu cari kat youtube tu aku just wonderlah kenapa ea lagu sekarang baru keluar viewers kejap je naik beribu-riban, lagu-lagu zaman indie ni dah bertahun kat youtube pun nak dapat 500k pun payah. Oh yelah dulu zaman aku sekolah dulu bukan semua rumah ada internet, ada pun tak semua jenis yang laju. Yang connect dengan telefon tu lagilah lembap nak mampus, pakai jaring tu ha. Sekarang almost every kids dah ada smartphones sendiri, internet takyah cakaplah punyalah senang nak dapat. Kalau smartphones takde internet zaman sekarang ni kira noob betullah tu. Baik campak je baling anjing lol. K gurau. Tapi betullah apa barang guna smartphones kalau takde internet, yedak?

Aku frust gak ah masa download lagu tadi sebabnya Muda by Hujan yang aku dengar zaman sekolah dulu lirik dia lain. Dulu aku dengar "alangkah indahnya dunia jika kita semua, tak akan membesar" tapi sejak bila tah dah tukar jadi "alangkah indahnya dunia jika kita semua, melangkah ke depan". Hmm maybe sebab lirik yang first tu tak relevan kot. Yelah memang taklah kita semua stay remaja sampai bebila kan. So betullah decision diorang untuk tukar, tapi still aku frustttt. Lol. 




One of favorite songs masa sekolah dulu masa zaman-zaman indie baru nak up. Lagu ni tak pernah masuk radio rasanya. Nilah zaman shawl baru nak up gak. Waktu ni sibuk tudung yuna. Sekarang banyak pesen tudung dah ada kat pasaran. Pilihlah mana yang berkenan di hati. Kalau melayu buat cerita macam Reply series, maybe boleh buat Reply 2008. Lagu indie baru nak naik. Macam Reply 1997 pasal Sech Kies & H.O.T, Reply 1994 hmm pasal apa ek?

Tak lupa juga zaman waktu lagu Indon tengah hot gila dekat Malaysia. Ya ampun gratis bangat. Sekalilah dengan zaman indie ni. K lah bye.

Nanti-nanti :)

Friday, July 14, 2017

after all this time, i'm still into you

Few days ago while scrolling all the way down the Facebook, I found quite an interesting article talking about 21 problems only people in long distance relationships will understand. Well, if you have been reading my blog, I bet you know that I have been in a long distance relationship since 6 years ago. Yes, 6 years of ups and downs. May this is the last one. 

Among those 21 things, there are 3 things that are really related to us.

"You find reasons to argue about irrelevant things just because you miss each other"
"You misunderstand the tone of your partner even when everything is fine"
"But in the end, you always make up. Because nothing can come close to that feeling when you do meet. And this is why you are still in that long distance relationship"

Damn, too good to be true.
But first, I think I need to clarify that it is always me who pick the fight, because I am such an immature-overthinking-clingy-and-annoying girlfriend ever. I really need to change before it is too late. I had tried many times, yet never succeeded. Why did I pick the quarrel? I just don't know why. Hmm actually I had figured out recently. And hopefully my future self, when you read this later, you have overcame the issue. 

So what are the things that can bring me to initiate the fight? Most of time because the way I read his messages was different from the way he really mean it. Well you know when you write message, I think most of us did this, we don't put commas. Without it, the sentence may become misleading. Plus the tone you use to read, made it more real. And that's how the biggest fight happened in May. Why it was the biggest? Because we took almost 2 months to reconcile. We never took more than a day. 

I thought it was the end of us, but in just a blink, I don't know, God's work, somehow we made it. Thank goodness. 

Back in 2012, we had a fight.
He told me recently that at that time he was thinking of giving up, he then asked me out the day after. He came all the way from his former study place, woke up early in the morning to rent a car, then got into the train, to come to me. And just like magic, the moment he saw me, the feelings of letting go gone like ashes. So I think the hypothesis; kalau gaduh kena jumpa depan-depan baru tau sayang taknak lepaskan, is accepted. It has been proven. We met a week ago, the feeling was still the same. I can feel it when I looked into his eyes. The way he looked at me, the way he talked to me, were all the same. Like the old days. After all the fights, we are still into each other.

May he's the one.



"At this moment of time, I just want us to be happy, together"


of medical school

Alhamdulliah I had passed year 4 of medschool. Another 1 year to go inshallah before I finally practicing as a medical doctor. I could still picture the things I had gone through since I started my journey as a medical student, even before that, 2 years in foundation centre. Total up it has been 6 years. Looking back, I just can't believe I had gone this far. Just wow. The first day of medschool, I was thinking how I am going to get through this? I couldn't even brain the medical terms. Everything seemed difficult back then. But now, no matter how hard it is, with the supports and prayers I got, I know I can get through this. Though sometimes it is so frustrating, irritating, confusing, tiring, you name it, I really have a pleasant time.

May God ease my journey to be a good and competent medical doctor.
:)